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{ ashley // SIHUI'
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171 days to graduation!
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Monday, June 18, 2007!
HandWritten on; 10:57 PM
could someone just let me vend my saddness here.while i tried to spill everything out and get a good night sleep as early as possible..nights.it had been nightssince i kept having almost the same nightmare.he kept appearing.i kept running away.i am so tired.very tired of all thesei faced the challenge everyday hoping one day it's gone.but it didnt for days.habouring my own fearno one knows and understands how i feel.am i too demanding?does the problem lies with me.?i dont know i really dont know.a fear tht craved in me.deep inside of medeep downa fear tht was instilled years ago;fear of trusting.i failed.failed badly in trusting my boy, my guy.not once, not twice but just enough to count with your left hand.not able to develop a trust ,needless to say results in fail relation.i felt real down ; yet i am pretending to be happy felt like a fool doing so.have you dissapointed me or have i disappointed you.?pretending to smile.cover her sadness.